i love angua as a character so much because like the way she thinks feels so real to me. the books where we get to be in angua’s head are some of my favorites, men at arms, feet of clay, thud! and fifth elephant being the ones i can remember of the top of my head.
she is so at odds with herself all the time, and this rings so true to my own experience: i have feelings which i have less control over them, and then i have to either justify or refute those feelings, depending what i think is “valid.” and of course, this causes inner conflict when i’m feeling something i think i shouldn’t be.
we see this in angua all the time! one example that i LOVE is when she is frustrated at how easy going carrot is, that things don’t bother him and just slide off his back. the complex guilt and frustration of feeling like things about her SHOULD bother him but don’t, and instead of being grateful or fawning over him for it it annoys her, and then she feels BAD about the way she feels about it! idk just the layers of her self image and the way she interacts with the world rings so true to me, and i love her for it.
(plus she’s a badass werewolf lady and that kicks ass but that’s another post)